His cell phone vibrated in his
pocket alerting him to an incoming sms.
"Hi, how r u?"
"I am good. How r u?"
"I am good"
"What's new?"
"Nothing really. Work then
home...you know. What's new with you?"
"You know...same old..."
He sat at the corner booth ordering himself
a cup of coffee - sugarless, milkless.
The old man walked right up and sat
across him.
"Hello"
"Hello, can I help you?"
"Help me? I don't think you are
in a position to help anyone...much more me...."
"Yo..hold your horses
paps..what the fuck you want?"
"As I was saying, you are in no
position to help me....but....I am..."
"Good..since you are..in a
position...to help yourself......why don't you go about it?..somewhere
else.."
"I was referring to you... I am
in a position to help YOU...You see...I am....do you know who I am?"
"Look ...Dude...I am trying to
have a coffee here..and I like having it alone.... and frankly I don't give a
rat's ass who you are, what you do or where you are coming from...or going
to... So take your little freaky sideshow to some other dumbfuck cause this one
right here ain't in the mood..."
"You are a feisty little prick
ain't you...."
"Motherfucker....God damn
it....DUDE...Get the fuck out of my face...."
"You know me?"
"Dude I don't know
you...and....I am happy that way...now ...git the fuck out of here..."
"Ha ha...Git? That was a good
one... I got to give you that much.... But I ask you again.... you know me? You
know who I am?"
"You ain't gonna go..are you?
..................."
"......................"
"Ok ............I'll play this
game with you.......I don't know you....so please do oblige me....who are
you?"
" You called me by name
before...I think you know who I am..."
" Are you Bud Spenser?"
"You never said Bud
Spenser..."
"Nor any other name
fuckface....So you tell me or what..?"
"Well my name is...G.[interrupted
abruptly]..."
"IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOUR
NAME IS.....All that should matter to you right now is how far up your ass my
foot will go in a minute....."
"BE QUIET LITTLE MAN...FOR YOU
ARE IN THE PRESENSE OF YOUR LORD ALMIGHTY"
"...of my who?......Of my
what?"
"THE LORD...GOD...I
AM GOD..."
"......................[bursts
in laughter] ..get the fuck out of here....get the fuck out....ha ha
ha..that was good...DUDE..that was good..."
"Do not patronize your Lord
mortal...for the time will come...and the wrath will be relentless and
eternal..."
" So ....GOD...I said it
right?... This is gonna be good…What u doin' here? The coffee ain't that
good...the waitress is cock-indifferent....food sucks....and I am
godless.....so tell me your lordness...to what do I owe this honor?"
"I am here to talk to
you..Despite your arrogant, subhuman behavior... I am here to talk to
you..."
"And I repeat, to what do I owe
this ....honor?"
"Well look, for quite some time
now....I’ve been bored... I mean..The organization is fine-tuned, working like
a charm...the faithful are shepherded....you know... I ain't got to work as hard
as I once had to..."
"Like in Roman times for example?"
"Yea..you got it...Those where
busy times..Kid was growing up over in Judea, wife wouldn't let me touch
her...had to go to a sperm bank ...angels were sexless... you know..."
"Holy shit...serious trouble
man.."
"I haven't holy-fied any shit
yet.. But anyhow...yea....I am here to talk to you....cause I am bored"
"And you came to me......to
talk to me....to .............alleviate your boredom?"
"No, no..I. actually came to
you...cause I think..no, I don't think, I know, ..I actually know, you see I
came to you because you are the only one who can enlighten me...You are the one
entity in this vastness, this array of infinities I have created that is
actually more bored than I am....and hell...you've done nothing...nothing...and
I see you...lingering about..carrying this empty corpse .."
"So there's a hell? and heaven?
Or is it just an expression ?"
"Expression. Just an
expression. "
"So you came to me
because....I, the human am better than you at something....boredom. That's a
compliment coming from you but do explain to me...why the boredom...you supposedly
can do anything...you are everywhere, know it all....et cetera et
cetera..."
"Well, you believe that
shit?"
"I don't, but you seem to have
convinced everyone else... So what are you? A hero that has been traded in for
a ghost? A cross-platform entity? A sub frequent or even a supra-frequent
manifestation into this frequency? A density traveler? How have you come to
be?"
"Well my friend, a lot of
questions there...partly self answered...Yes I am... A traveler...in and out...
I 've been around for....ever...as have you... and all. I walked out of the
cave early on... I saw this universe longing for supreme beings to lay upon
them hopes, fears, expectations. Someone or something to keep them at bay. Ever
since...I have been... If there is such thing as time...I have been from it's beginning...and
so have you...Once I departed the cave of universal perception, I literally saw
millions of "gods" being created out of thin air, out of rocks,
crystals, trees, you name it...I've seen it. This universe needed the
enslavement of the dogma... freedom scared the shit out of them…It was an
oxymoron situation in it self… This universe, inhabited by beings, flora and
fauna as you call it, was a harmonious
utopia. Then your species started to act, then to think, to think and act and
the more you thought, the more you acted- not always in your best interest if I
may add. And the oxymoron is that, although you managed to rise above the
harmony, above the other species, you chose, I repeat you CHOSE to create
mental prisons for yourselves. You chose to start owing gratitude and obedience to trees, rocks,
to the elements of nature, to animals and birds. And as you grew mentally, you
started to worship humanoid forms- totem poles, human/animal hybrids and
gradually…they came to be… human form super charged, super powered gods.
Greeks, Romans, Egyptians….the list is endless. But these newly found dogmata were
so loosely put together that they were magnificent. Humans could relate to them
so easily. The gods were there, they were worshiped, sacrifices were made in their
names but all in all they were nothing more than superhuman assholes, using
their powers to fulfill the wishful thinking of their subordinates”
“So these gods, of the Greeks? If I am
getting you right… they didn’t exist either… they were manifestations of
collective fear…”
“Yes exactly. You are smarter than
the average bear… This collective mind manipulation was what made them a “reality”.
But your species would not have it otherwise… As I said before, there were some really smart touches to this
scam. These so called gods, had flaws. They were envious, had psychological
syndromes of all sorts, hatred flowed in their veins, they were manipulative,
even murderous, had no respect and knew no friendships… they were all too human…
their self appointed representatives, the priests, the oracles, the shamans-
call them what you please- were nothing
more than cheats, bullshitters with oratorical charms.”
“I see you are pretty fond of them…”
“What are you breaking my balls for.
I am just telling a story here..work with me.”
“I never thought god would be out of
New Jersey…ha ha.. what’s with the accent?”
“What’s with your pseudo-mafia,
accent?”
“Ok.. nough with the accents.. go on…
actually…before that let me ask you something…”
“I know what you are gonna ask.. Why
now? Why you?”
“Yes…Why now, here, me?”
“I told you, I see the boredom in
every cell of your body but I also see
the absence of awe. I see the assimilation of all that I am uttering and the
comprehension of every last syllable. Despite the boredom and your empty eyes, I
can see an understanding, a perception of what is, and although you could never
put your finger on it… you seem as if you always knew..”
“How could I be awed by a something I
do not acknowledge as an existence?”
“But I am here…”
“Yes you are.. go on..”
“As I was saying, these gods of the ancient
had flaws.. as people started learning more, as they started luring their minds
out of the norm by creating “hallucinations” … these gods became less and less
attractive. So by “divine intervention” a new player came to be…ME. There was a
huge opportunity.. all those years of observing, of endless observing paid off…
I could see things as they really were… and I created…ME… I come in many names
and yet I am nameless… I ‘ve created ultimate dualities and put them against
each other, good vs evil, heaven vs hell… and so forth. I had myself the best
sales manager that ever walked this frequency…and 2000 human years later…here
we are… I have a full blown operation, offices in every single country, boards
of directors, bosses, capos, made men, soldiers… I have my very own little cosa
nostra… my thing.. I never thought that this would become so huge… but it has
become huge.. All it took…is shift of perception… Vantage point changed…and
here we are… I am god… in this frequency. I can go in and out other
frequencies…but this is where I originated…this is where my brain’s vat was..it
is from here that I “escaped””
“And to what purpose? You used your
reality to create more lies… more false pretences? What kind of freedom is
that? This is the best you could do?”
“Not quite so… this is just my favorite
pastime…like baseball… I do other shit…further my understanding of what is
endless possibilities… I am god in this here density..but a mere traveler in
the other ones…searching for answers…answers to questions that have not been
asked yet… “
“ I know these densities, these
frequencies you are talking about…. I’ve seen them”
“What are you talking about ….nobody
on this matrix has been outside it..”
“All have been outside…they choose
to believe that they haven’t”
“Please elaborate..”
“Well, what is a dream? What is a hallucination? Day
dreaming? Imagination? Visions? All these “pictures” of the extraordinaire…of a
world not subject to human or earthly limitations… a world within the vastness
of the unchartered brain… people have studied and written books and published
studies and experimented and, and and… on the mystery that is the human brain…
People have always tried to think “outside
the box”, look for what’s out there…whereas..at all times…it’s the inner space
that mattered.. there’s no other space, there’s no other time…there’s vibrations
of various sorts, superposition of existences on various levels and depths…. And
it’s all in there…implode…and you shall see… so yes…we have all been outside –
or should I say inside- of what you call the matrix”
“Holy shit…”
“I thought you haven’t holyfied shit
yet”
“I just did… you have a dangerous
perception of things my friend… that is not an easy “burden” to bear..”
“You are right about that… it’s a
short-circuiting factor… the logic as derived from the training we’ve had….can’t
quite substantiate this perception of matters… it’s next to impossible… you can’t
do it..not without losing basic human functionality… it’s a flow of things…
predetermined… You get born, you are raised and trained to be as your
environment is…remember?…supposedly you said it “I have created you in my image”…
So we grow with our brains fed with all sorts of lies, half facts and non
truths… and you are given no time to evolve.. to identify the you.. you have to
decide on a job, a girl, a house.. whatever you have been trained to desire…
but sometimes, sometimes something goes wrong… to be more accurate something
goes right… you start to see more… you start to understand that your eyes are
nothing more than light tubes…that they can’t really see nothing… you begin to
see that your sight starts within and manifests into your environment…hence the
old adage “beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder”….. As I was saying.. the
more you see the less you accept as givens… what I see as a tree you might see
as a pen…but we both see the same thing.. we might perceive it different…and we’ll
never be able to accept each other’s “sight” as not the same…a universal veil
has been fitted on our foreheads… we have come to accept that we all see the same world… I am getting
dizzy just thinking about all this… Short-circuiting… as I told you”
“Let me tell you… I know where you
are coming from… you know…but you just can’t quite explain the certainty of
this knowledge…and you shut down…on all levels… hence the boredom..hence the loneliness…”
……………To be continued….
2 σχόλια:
very interesting.
yours?
except from the "IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOUR NAME IS..." line the rest is mine... yes
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