His cell phone vibrated in his pocket alerting him to an incoming sms.
"Hi, how r u?"
"I am good. How r u?"
"I am good"
"Nothing really. Work then home...you know. What's new with you?"
"You know...same old..."
He sat at the corner booth ordering himself a cup of coffee - sugarless, milkless.
The old man walked right up and sat across him.
"Hello, can I help you?"
"Help me? I don't think you are in a position to help anyone...much more me...."
"Yo..hold your horses paps..what the fuck you want?"
"As I was saying, you are in no position to help me....but....I am..."
"Good..since you are..in a position...to help yourself......why don't you go about it?..somewhere else.."
"I was referring to you... I am in a position to help YOU...You see...I am....do you know who I am?"
"Look ...Dude...I am trying to have a coffee here..and I like having it alone.... and frankly I don't give a rat's ass who you are, what you do or where you are coming from...or going to... So take your little freaky sideshow to some other dumbfuck cause this one right here ain't in the mood..."
"You are a feisty little prick ain't you...."
"Motherfucker....God damn it....DUDE...Get the fuck out of my face...."
"You know me?"
"Dude I don't know you...and....I am happy that way...now ...git the fuck out of here..."
"Ha ha...Git? That was a good one... I got to give you that much.... But I ask you again.... you know me? You know who I am?"
"You ain't gonna go..are you? ..................."
"Ok ............I'll play this game with you.......I don't know you....so please do oblige me....who are you?"
" You called me by name before...I think you know who I am..."
" Are you Bud Spenser?"
"You never said Bud Spenser..."
"Nor any other name fuckface....So you tell me or what..?"
"Well my name is...G.[interrupted abruptly]..."
"IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOUR NAME IS.....All that should matter to you right now is how far up your ass my foot will go in a minute....."
"BE QUIET LITTLE MAN...FOR YOU ARE IN THE PRESENSE OF YOUR LORD ALMIGHTY"
"...of my who?......Of my what?"
"THE LORD...GOD...I AM GOD..."
"......................[bursts in laughter] ..get the fuck out of here....get the fuck out....ha ha ha..that was good...DUDE..that was good..."
"Do not patronize your Lord mortal...for the time will come...and the wrath will be relentless and eternal..."
" So ....GOD...I said it right?... This is gonna be good…What u doin' here? The coffee ain't that good...the waitress is cock-indifferent....food sucks....and I am godless.....so tell me your lordness...to what do I owe this honor?"
"I am here to talk to you..Despite your arrogant, subhuman behavior... I am here to talk to you..."
"And I repeat, to what do I owe this ....honor?"
"Well look, for quite some time now....I’ve been bored... I mean..The organization is fine-tuned, working like a charm...the faithful are shepherded....you know... I ain't got to work as hard as I once had to..."
"Like in Roman times for example?"
"Yea..you got it...Those where busy times..Kid was growing up over in Judea, wife wouldn't let me touch her...had to go to a sperm bank ...angels were sexless... you know..."
"Holy shit...serious trouble man.."
"I haven't holy-fied any shit yet.. But anyhow...yea....I am here to talk to you....cause I am bored"
"And you came to me......to talk to me....to .............alleviate your boredom?"
"No, no..I. actually came to you...cause I think..no, I don't think, I know, ..I actually know, you see I came to you because you are the only one who can enlighten me...You are the one entity in this vastness, this array of infinities I have created that is actually more bored than I am....and hell...you've done nothing...nothing...and I see you...lingering about..carrying this empty corpse .."
"So there's a hell? and heaven? Or is it just an expression ?"
"Expression. Just an expression. "
"So you came to me because....I, the human am better than you at something....boredom. That's a compliment coming from you but do explain to me...why the boredom...you supposedly can do anything...you are everywhere, know it all....et cetera et cetera..."
"Well, you believe that shit?"
"I don't, but you seem to have convinced everyone else... So what are you? A hero that has been traded in for a ghost? A cross-platform entity? A sub frequent or even a supra-frequent manifestation into this frequency? A density traveler? How have you come to be?"
"Well my friend, a lot of questions there...partly self answered...Yes I am... A traveler...in and out... I 've been around for....ever...as have you... and all. I walked out of the cave early on... I saw this universe longing for supreme beings to lay upon them hopes, fears, expectations. Someone or something to keep them at bay. Ever since...I have been... If there is such thing as time...I have been from it's beginning...and so have you...Once I departed the cave of universal perception, I literally saw millions of "gods" being created out of thin air, out of rocks, crystals, trees, you name it...I've seen it. This universe needed the enslavement of the dogma... freedom scared the shit out of them…It was an oxymoron situation in it self… This universe, inhabited by beings, flora and fauna as you call it, was a harmonious utopia. Then your species started to act, then to think, to think and act and the more you thought, the more you acted- not always in your best interest if I may add. And the oxymoron is that, although you managed to rise above the harmony, above the other species, you chose, I repeat you CHOSE to create mental prisons for yourselves. You chose to start owing gratitude and obedience to trees, rocks, to the elements of nature, to animals and birds. And as you grew mentally, you started to worship humanoid forms- totem poles, human/animal hybrids and gradually…they came to be… human form super charged, super powered gods. Greeks, Romans, Egyptians….the list is endless. But these newly found dogmata were so loosely put together that they were magnificent. Humans could relate to them so easily. The gods were there, they were worshiped, sacrifices were made in their names but all in all they were nothing more than superhuman assholes, using their powers to fulfill the wishful thinking of their subordinates”
“So these gods, of the Greeks? If I am getting you right… they didn’t exist either… they were manifestations of collective fear…”
“Yes exactly. You are smarter than the average bear… This collective mind manipulation was what made them a “reality”. But your species would not have it otherwise… As I said before, there were some really smart touches to this scam. These so called gods, had flaws. They were envious, had psychological syndromes of all sorts, hatred flowed in their veins, they were manipulative, even murderous, had no respect and knew no friendships… they were all too human… their self appointed representatives, the priests, the oracles, the shamans- call them what you please- were nothing more than cheats, bullshitters with oratorical charms.”
“I see you are pretty fond of them…”
“What are you breaking my balls for. I am just telling a story here..work with me.”
“I never thought god would be out of New Jersey…ha ha.. what’s with the accent?”
“What’s with your pseudo-mafia, accent?”
“Ok.. nough with the accents.. go on… actually…before that let me ask you something…”
“I know what you are gonna ask.. Why now? Why you?”
“Yes…Why now, here, me?”
“I told you, I see the boredom in every cell of your body but I also see the absence of awe. I see the assimilation of all that I am uttering and the comprehension of every last syllable. Despite the boredom and your empty eyes, I can see an understanding, a perception of what is, and although you could never put your finger on it… you seem as if you always knew..”
“How could I be awed by a something I do not acknowledge as an existence?”
“But I am here…”
“Yes you are.. go on..”
“As I was saying, these gods of the ancient had flaws.. as people started learning more, as they started luring their minds out of the norm by creating “hallucinations” … these gods became less and less attractive. So by “divine intervention” a new player came to be…ME. There was a huge opportunity.. all those years of observing, of endless observing paid off… I could see things as they really were… and I created…ME… I come in many names and yet I am nameless… I ‘ve created ultimate dualities and put them against each other, good vs evil, heaven vs hell… and so forth. I had myself the best sales manager that ever walked this frequency…and 2000 human years later…here we are… I have a full blown operation, offices in every single country, boards of directors, bosses, capos, made men, soldiers… I have my very own little cosa nostra… my thing.. I never thought that this would become so huge… but it has become huge.. All it took…is shift of perception… Vantage point changed…and here we are… I am god… in this frequency. I can go in and out other frequencies…but this is where I originated…this is where my brain’s vat was..it is from here that I “escaped””
“And to what purpose? You used your reality to create more lies… more false pretences? What kind of freedom is that? This is the best you could do?”
“Not quite so… this is just my favorite pastime…like baseball… I do other shit…further my understanding of what is endless possibilities… I am god in this here density..but a mere traveler in the other ones…searching for answers…answers to questions that have not been asked yet… “
“ I know these densities, these frequencies you are talking about…. I’ve seen them”
“What are you talking about ….nobody on this matrix has been outside it..”
“All have been outside…they choose to believe that they haven’t”
“Well, what is a dream? What is a hallucination? Day dreaming? Imagination? Visions? All these “pictures” of the extraordinaire…of a world not subject to human or earthly limitations… a world within the vastness of the unchartered brain… people have studied and written books and published studies and experimented and, and and… on the mystery that is the human brain… People have always tried to think “outside the box”, look for what’s out there…whereas..at all times…it’s the inner space that mattered.. there’s no other space, there’s no other time…there’s vibrations of various sorts, superposition of existences on various levels and depths…. And it’s all in there…implode…and you shall see… so yes…we have all been outside – or should I say inside- of what you call the matrix”
“I thought you haven’t holyfied shit yet”
“I just did… you have a dangerous perception of things my friend… that is not an easy “burden” to bear..”
“You are right about that… it’s a short-circuiting factor… the logic as derived from the training we’ve had….can’t quite substantiate this perception of matters… it’s next to impossible… you can’t do it..not without losing basic human functionality… it’s a flow of things… predetermined… You get born, you are raised and trained to be as your environment is…remember?…supposedly you said it “I have created you in my image”… So we grow with our brains fed with all sorts of lies, half facts and non truths… and you are given no time to evolve.. to identify the you.. you have to decide on a job, a girl, a house.. whatever you have been trained to desire… but sometimes, sometimes something goes wrong… to be more accurate something goes right… you start to see more… you start to understand that your eyes are nothing more than light tubes…that they can’t really see nothing… you begin to see that your sight starts within and manifests into your environment…hence the old adage “beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder”….. As I was saying.. the more you see the less you accept as givens… what I see as a tree you might see as a pen…but we both see the same thing.. we might perceive it different…and we’ll never be able to accept each other’s “sight” as not the same…a universal veil has been fitted on our foreheads… we have come to accept that we all see the same world… I am getting dizzy just thinking about all this… Short-circuiting… as I told you”
“Let me tell you… I know where you are coming from… you know…but you just can’t quite explain the certainty of this knowledge…and you shut down…on all levels… hence the boredom..hence the loneliness…”
……………To be continued….